


i just need someone to call my lover

by lalaclairi



Category: iCarly
Genre: Romance
Language: English
Status: Completed
Published: 2010-10-14
Updated: 2010-10-14
Packaged: 2014-06-02 00:06:37
Rating: K+
Chapters: 1
Words: 748
Publisher: www.fanfiction.net
Story URL: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6399389/1/
Author URL: https://www.fanfiction.net/u/1960722/lalaclairi
Summary: I'll wait forever for you, baby. \ Carly&Freddie, learning to love.





	i just need someone to call my lover

_if someday you decided to leave here again_

_i would close every door_

_so there would be no way out_

_you can have my silence_

_you can have my nose_

_you can even have my bones_

_but just don't leave again_

_- Shakira, Tu_

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He gets there just as the sun sets, and you're barefoot and your hair is messy and you're in pajamas and if you had know he was coming, you would have dressed up and this scene has been done before - but the two of you were always cliche.

You want to ask him, _Who let you in here? _and _Where have you been? _but you don't and the two of you just simply stare at each other. It all seemed so easy when you practiced this conversation with Sam.

He grabs your hand and holds it so tight you feel safe for once and his eyes are smiling but the smile doesn't travel down to his mouth.

You lay back on your bed and pull down the covers and the smile finally reaches his mouth and he slides into the bed next to you. A blanket of darkness replaces the sun and you've always been afraid of the dark but with him, right here, right now (_he's so close you can hear his heart beating_) you feel like you could take the world.

You fall asleep with your hands intertwined, him tracing circles on yours.

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Sam somehow manages to disappear and all that's left is a tray of cookies and a note that says she knows you can't cook so here's breakfast for Freddie and you and you can still smell her perfume in the kitchen and all of the sudden you wish she hadn't left you alone with him.

You can hear the shower running and there's a sudden pang in your chest at the memory of your mother and you're running to the bathroom, ready to break down the door but you catch yourself in time.

You had stopped biting your nails around the eighth grade, but waiting for him to get out of the shower you end up doing just that and by the time he's done in there, every nail except for your right thumb is a nub.

He opens his mouth as if he's going to speak but he quickly closes it and you chuckle to yourself he kind of looks like the fish in the tank Spencer got you for your birthday yesterday.

"How many cookies do you want, Carly?" Is the first thing he says, and you feel extremely disappointed this is the sentence you've been losing your mind over.

"I'm not hungry." If he had been here, he would know you hadn't been hungry for weeks and he's supposed to force you to eat like Spencer and Sam do.

"Okay, then." He takes all of the cookies and you guess he has a bigger appetite than you thought.

Now that he broke the silence, you think you can say what you want to say, but all that comes out of your mouth is "where".

But apparently that's enough, because his mouth drops open and then he closes it and he looks at the ground and you feel bad but only for a second.

"I just...wanted to...you know find...my...self."

"That's it? That's why you-" But you can't say anything and you decide to let it go; all that really matters is the fact that he's here with you and you're here with him and he seems to be in love with you again.

He grabs your hand again, holds on to it with a death grip and you want him to never leave it go and at the same time you want him to hold on tighter. He bites down on his bottom lip again, nervous you guess, and you're sure it's the most adorable thing you've ever seen.

Sam comes back right at this moment, and it's perfect timing somehow. "What up, what up? Everything cool?" She does this funny smile like she already knows what happened and you hope you and Freddie aren't that predictable.

"Yeah..." You say in a high voice, and then you burst out laughing and Freddie and Sam think you're crazy but you're just so happy!


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